…where I over-share my life and call it healing—basically, the internet (and this site) is my therapist!

Welp, let’s see…

👋🏼 I’m amber – an AuDHD, quirky, sarcastic, blessed (?? 😉) with a dry sense of humour, chronically ill, emotionally exhausted GenX’er.

👵🏻 I’m “old” (old in my mind for reasons). I’m recently single. I don’t have friends. I’m desperately lonely. I’m tired. I’m sad. I’m anxious, depressed & scared.

📍 I currently live in the Lower Mainland. I have 3 cats (Chester, Jinx & Izzy) and 1 dog (Ruby) who I love with the force of a thousand suns.

🧨🪖I come to you with a metric tonne of trauma that I need to get off my chest so I don’t implode within myself.

😵‍💫 At the start of COVID, I lost my job (first time that ever happened) and all the trauma that I’d kept neatly tucked away—because I was busy enough living to ignore it—suddenly said HELLOOOOO and fell into my lap in one fell swoop.
And with nothing to do and being stuck indoors, it took over my life.

😓 For the past 5 years, I’ve been in a deep, dark hole that I nearly didn’t survive.
There were several times I came close to leaving this plane of existence—
but thankfully, I made it through.

🛑 I’ve dealt with abuse nearly from birth, been in an abusive relationship for nearly 2 decades,
and suffer from C-PTSD, depression, anxiety, and agoraphobia—among many other fun things.

🥺 I’m realizing I never really “lived” life. I just kind of fumbled through it. And now, I’m trying to heal.

👩🏻‍🏫 During this time, I also learned I’m autistic and ADHD (AuDHD).
That’s what happens when you’re thrust into therapy in order to survive.
And now, I’m learning how deeply it affected every part of my life—
burnout, food and general sensory issues, severe executive dysfunction, to name a few.

🌀 I struggle deeply with perfectionism and can’t make a decision to save my life! But I’m working on it.

🫥 I’m unmasking and learning to be authentically me—whatever the crap that means. 🤷🏻‍♀️

🗣️ I’m sharing my journey with late-discovered autism & ADHD, C-PTSD, loss of love, grief, chronic illness—and whatever else decides to kick me in the guts.

🎭 I’m a painfully real, painfully funny woman trying to live an honest life after surviving one that wasn’t.

✵I quote TV shows, movies & TikToks.
✵I have too many pets (but still want more).
✵I love bright colours.
✵I hate cooking.
✵I’m tired all the damn time.
✵I’m broke. I’m in debt.
✵I watch FRIENDS on repeat.
✵I read nonsense novels (Nora Roberts is my go-to).

…. And I don’t like cheese 🧀 (yes, you read that right. Don’t come for me 🫠).

Basically… It’s random. It’s real.

It’s a little chaotic … just like me. 🙋🏻‍♀️